Keeping it real?

I've done this before too, but i don't know if it's good or bad. Or maybe just better... I haven't porged since wednesday, and that's because instead of swollowing i chew and spit it out. And i can actually do it! I don't feel the need to swollow, i just spit the cookies and chocolate out instead of swollowing. I don't know, im sure the therapist would say it's still as bad, but it kept me from porging...