worse and worse self-esteem

I met my uncle today at work. I was at the fruit department when he came up just to talk a bit with me. Before he left he said

- And Zoey love, don't look so sad.

I have never had my uncle say that to me. And besides I always hear how happy I look and how nice it is to meet me at the supermarket, and my mom keeps getting compliments for her daughters. My God, it's getting worse and worse !! I've been bulimic for many years but i've never looked sad in public, and noone has ever been able to tell i suffer from eating disorders, not since i stopped sharing dressing rooms with the other girls back in school.

I'm now planning on getting more surgery. I know this sounds sick, but it's something i really wanna do. I wanna do my cheeks. My hamster cheeks and my jaw line. Just get some fat away, i hate that my face and my jaw-line looks so "strong", that's what spoils my face and i hate being on pictures because of it. 1000 dollars it's gonna cost me, and 1200 dollars the upper arm surgery.. i hope ill be able to do it within a year.